Callen at 4 Months

Four months, and yet I feel like I've been his mother my whole life. That's how it is with babies. Really, that's how it is with anyone who you truly love. It is hard to imagine what life felt like before them.

These days, our super sweet boy is learning all kinds of new tricks!

~He loves to "talk" to his toys and to us; sometimes it's a quiet coo, a bubbly gurgle, or, more frequently, a high pitched, excited shreik.
~Just like his sister did, he is doing things backward and is rolling back to belly regularly, and has rolled belly to back only a handful of times.
~He loves tummy time, and still is pushing himself forward with his feet, though more often these days he is getting up on his knees, chest on the ground, and sticking his butt in the air. I will not be surprised if he's an early crawler; he is definitely anxious to MOVE!
~He is chewing on everything, a sign of teething I am afraid.
~In the span of the past 5 days, he's gone from batting at his toys and sometimes hitting them to grabbing them in his first try; he also loves to grab my nose or lip and laughs hysterically when I pretend to eat his hand.
~He absolutely loves to watch his sister. When she comes around, he will stop whatevery he is doing to just sit and watch her in awe.

As for his stats, our big boy is HUGE! He is even farther off the charts at 27.5 inches long (the length of the average 9 month old!) and is in the 95th percentile at 18 lbs, 5 oz (the weight of the average 6 month old.) I am willing to bet that he is going to be even taller than his daddy one day!

Lesson: You are your own (and your kids own) best advocate.

One lesson I learned the hard way in life is that you are your own best advocate when it comes to your health. It's one of those lessons that I try to impart on anyone I know who is having health issues: if you have a gut feeling something is wrong, beyond what the doctors say is going on, listen to your gut. Push for more tests, get a second opinion, research your symptoms on your own. Do not silence your intuition just because a doctor gives you their diagnosis. Doctors are not Gods; they are human. And they can be wrong.

My only interaction with doctors as a kid was with my pediatrician, for standard things. Well checks, strep tests, vaccinations, diagnosing the chicken pox. I had perfect vision and perfect hearing. I never broke a bone, needed stitches, or had any odd illnesses that required me to see a specialist. Overall, I was pretty healthy and pretty lucky. But because of my only ever interfacing with my pediatrician (for 18 years,) I also think that I developed an unrealistic view of doctors. In my mind, doctors (at least the vast majority of them) knew everything. They rarely, if ever, faltered. My first wake-up call was in the spring of 2005 when I developed a blood clot and spent a week in the hospital, half of my days in ICU. I only saw my doctor 2 or 3 times total in a span of 6 days, had to teach three different nurses how to draw blood out of my arterial line, and while I finally left the hospital with a diagnosis, I also left without the surgery I needed because I was so horrified at how alone I realized I was in defending my own health. I won't go into details because the story is LONG, but the short of it is that after a bunch of research done by me, my family, and a family friend, I decided to have the surgery done in a different state by a doctor who not only knew what the heck he was doing (and later told me that he would have been able to give me a diagnosis in a day or two tops) but also had bedside manner, which my first doctor definitely didn't.

My second experience with this has been in the past couple of weeks. Again, it is a ridiculously long story, but the short version is that Audia was having light sensitivity and watering in her left eye. First we were told it was "non-contagious conjunctivitis" and prescribed drops. A couple days later, we noticed a whitish spot on her cornea and brought her back in on day 4 of the drops because she had not improved at all and the spot was still there. We were referred to a pediatric ophthalmologist. He couldn't see any spot and said it was probably just pink eye and to give the drops another week (it had been 6 days on the drops already.) The next day her eye was worse and my gut told me that it just was NOT pink eye. We insisted on another appointment, and this time the eye doctor actually used a slit lamp and magnification (which he did not the first time....) and saw what we were talking about. He brought in a corneal specialist to look as well and they both agreed that she needed to have surgery to have the abnormality removed ASAP so it wouldn't cause permanent scarring of her cornea. The day after that, our brave little girl went under anesthesia for the first time in her life to have an "abnormality in the epithelial layer of her cornea" scraped off. Apparently they typically see that kind of abnormality when there is a foreign body embedded in the cornea (like a piece of sand or glass) but they did not find any foreign body, and the "sample" of tissue was too small to send off for testing. The good news is that so far it seems to be healing well and her light sensitivity has diminished immensely compared to a week ago. Only time will tell if this is something that will recur or has impacted her vision.
Lesson reiterated: trust your gut!!

My Memories Suite - Software Review and GIVEAWAY!

A couple of weeks ago I recieved an email asking me if I would be interested in trying and reviewing a digital scrapbooking software. If you know anything about me, you know that I love to scrapbook. Of course, these days with two little ones I don't get much of a chance to actually do any physical scrapbooking, so I've taken to digital scrapbooking to feed my addiction. I used My Memories Suite to make a brag book for my dad, as well as a card template and a few scrapbooking pages, and I have to say that I am quite impressed! Here's an example of a page I made in about 10 minutes.  

I found the software super easy to use; it is very intuitive and only took me a couple of minutes to get used to the controls and how to start making a page. For those who are a bit less technologically inclined, their website has links to some great video tutorials. They also have a ton of additional scrapbooking kits, both free and for sale. And a huge plus is that you can also use the software with papers and embellishments that you've already purchased or made yourself.  

In return for my reviewing their software, My Memories has been kind enough to give me a coupon code that you can use for $10 off of My Memories Suite and $10 off of a purchase from the My Memories store. The coupon code is  STMMMS76732.

In addition to that, they are allowing me to give away one copy of My Memories Suite to one of my readers! So, here's the deal:

1. Go to www.mymemories.com and take a look at their scrapbooking kits. Then, come back here and leave a comment telling me which kit you like best. Easy as pie, you're entered to win!

2. For an additional entry, follow My Memories on Twitter, then leave a seperate comment letting me know you're following them.

3. For an additional entry, like My Memories on Facebook, then leave a seperate comment letting me know you've liked them.

A winner will be chosen at random on Friday, October 14th, 2011 and announced here on my blog!

Callen at 3 Months

Our little man is growing by leaps and bounds! Unfortunately, we don't have a well check for Callen this month so we have to do our own measurements. While I am sure they are accurate, it just doesn't feel as official as getting them from the doctor. That said, today Callen is 16 lbs, 6 oz and 26.5" long. This puts him at the 95th percentile for weight and off the charts for height.

 At three months, he:

•  Is smiling all the time! I have to avoid making eye contact with him while he's eating because otherwise he'll smile that big, gummy grin of his and dribble milk all over the place!
• Still has a minor case of tongue tie, though it doesn't seem to affect him too much. He is a bit messier of an eater than his sister was, but that's pretty much all it seems to be affecting.
• Is laughing! He just started laughing the other day, and it's seriously the best sound in the world. He'll grin up at me and laugh, turning his head to the side like he's being bashful. I die every time he does it :-)

• Has rolled back to belly a few times but isn't doing it regularly yet.
• Has crazy upper body strength! During tummy time, he will lift his head and shoulders well off the ground and will sometimes even hold them up without using his arms to prop himself up. It is insane how quickly babies get so strong.

• Chews on his hands a lot. This is totally normal baby behavior, but it still cracks me up. He still hasn't really "found" his thumb and won't take a pacifier, but he loves to suck and chew on his fist.
• Babbles and coos all the time!
• Loves to watch his feet. He discovered them a couple of weeks ago, and now his favorite thing to do if he's in his bouncy chair, carseat, or sitting in someone's lap, is to watch his feet moving around. He'll even lean forward, seemingly to try to get them in his mouth.

• Sleeps for anywhere from 4-6 hours at night (in a crib!), and then wakes up every 2-3 hours until around 7 or 8.
• Still doesn't really have a set nap schedule, but will take 3 to 5 naps from 30 minutes to an hour and a half each.
• Is still very relaxed and easy-going, at least in my opinion. Most days he is easy to get down for naps, still doesn't mind the car seat too much, will take a bottle (though it does take him much longer to eat from one,) and overall seems to be a very happy baby. He's the perfect addition to our family!

10 Years

While this is a blog mainly about my kiddos, it is also mainly for my kiddos, and I would feel remiss if I didn't acknowledge the importance of this day.

10 years ago today I was in my 3rd week as a sophomore at ASU. I was living in the dorms, and while I don't think I had yet declared it my major, I had started making movement to change my major from Psychology to Photography. I only had one morning (before 10 am) class first semester and it was on Tuesdays and Thursdays, though I can't remember what class it was. I do remember that I had decided the night before that I would skip my morning class and sleep in. I woke up on Tuesday morning to my next door neighbor, Jason, knocking on my door, saying that classes were cancelled and to turn on the news. Confused and a bit scared, I turned on my TV to see footage being replayed of the planes crashing into the twin towers. I was horrified, trying desperately to think of anyone I knew who might be or know someone in New York City. I remember little of the rest of the day. I know I spent a good portion of it watching tv with various kids from my floor. I remember being really annoyed with most of the newscasters. I remember being stunned silent. And I remember thinking to myself "Why are people so suprised that someone would try to do something like this to the US?" At the time, I don't think I said those words out loud to anyone besides my parents. The rest of the semester is somewhat of a blur due mainly to the events of that day. The entire country was in a state of mourning and shock (not to mention extreme paranoia,) which I am not sure will ever be shaken entirely, at least not until our generation has passed. I only hope that my kids never have to experience such a devestating event, though it seems every generation has their own. Columbine and 9/11 were ours.

Audia's First Day of School

So, not only was yesterday Audia's birthday, but it was her first day of preschool as well! She's attending twice a week for 2.5 hours and is in a class of 16 kids, with 2 teachers. In order to avoid making the first day too overwhelming (and also at the request of the director of the preschool, who intelligently asked parents to just "drop and go" on the first day), I didn't bring my camera along to drop her off. I figure there will be plenty of oppertunities to get photos of her at school throughout the year. So, I took her 'first day' photo at home, and she insisted that it be taken with Peter Pan. 

You'll notice that she has her infamous "Michael Jackson Sock," as we call it. She very rarely will wear two socks at once unless she has shoes on over them.

I was a bit nervous about dropping her off yesterday, but our brave little girl, although a bit quieter than her normal, talkative self, walked in without a glance back. I was so proud! Chris and I picked her up together so we could get a special birthday lunch afterwards, and she was in great spirits. She said she had a lot of fun, and last night at bedtime even asked if she could go back again today. I'd call it a success! I am really looking forward to seeing all that the school year holds for our munchkin!

Audia is 3!

Dear Audia,

Three years ago today you entered this world in your own way, and you've been doing things your own way ever since. I cannot even begin to put into words how you've changed our world, how you've changed us. You've taught us so much already about life and what's important. You have such a bright light inside of you, my darling. My goal is to make sure you know to always let it shine.

Here you are on the day you were born.

One year old

Two years old

Three years old

At age three, these are some of the things you are doing and are into:

You love, love, love to sing and dance! Some of your favorite songs are, in no particular order: 'Twinkle, Twinkle,' 'Distant Melody,' 'Don't Stand So Close to Me,' 'Be Mine,' 'Lullaby and Goodnight,' 'I'll Stand By You,' and every song in the Care Bears Movies from the 80's.

You are compassionate and sweet. If someone is hurt or sad or upset (or even if they aren't but you imagine that they are or should be,) you immediately try to console that person and to make the situation better. You love giving kisses and hugs and snuggling, especially with your baby brother.

You are insanely imaginative. You have entire conversations back and forth with all of your toys, and you regularly ask us to make the most random things talk to you: the sun, the trees, the car, and of course all of the characters from shows or movies you've seen recently.

Your favorite TV shows are: Dragon Tales, 30 Rock, Shaun the Sheep, Yo Gabba Gabba, Wonder Pets, Pee Wee's Playhouse, and The Backyardigans.

Your favorite movies are: Disney's Peter Pan, Pirates of the Caribbean, The Care Bears Movie, The Wizard of Oz, and The Aristocats.

You love to sort things and set everything out in vast piles, I'm assuming so you can see them all and admire your collections.

• You eat things most people assume kids don't/won't like: Asparagus, spinach, green beans, pickles, mushrooms, onions, and olives, to name a few.
• You love scary things. You love to spook people and to be spooked. The other day, while watching the Wizard of Oz, you said to me "Momma, I don't like the pink witch. I only like the green witch, 'cause she's scary!" And, you've locked into being a skeleton for halloween this year.
• You are still, and probably always will be, incredibly willful. If there is something you want to do, it sticks in your mind like glue and you will find a way to do it. Same goes for things you don't want to do.

Happy Birthday, my little munchkin. While part of me really wishes that time would slow down, and that you could stay our little girl forever, another part of me is so excited to watch you continue to grow and blossom into the amazing woman I know that you will be.

I love you more than words.